Love Drunk.

Okay. We've got a few problems here.

First off, I'm never letting anyone borrow my flash drive, EVER again. My screenplay is gone. Which should annoy me more than it does, but retyping ten pages won't be too horrible.

Second of all, I have no idea what I'm gonna do about the boy.

Talking to people who know me, they sense that I'm discontent. They want me to be with someone who makes me happy.

Right now, I just feel cast-off, like a snakeskin. He says ignoring me is for my own good, but that's just bullshit. He acted the same way right before christmas. But this is just ridiculous.

Anyways. I was studying for the Ocean Bowl today with Tasha and Robin. When Tasha had to leave, Robin and I mobbed to Cornerstone and started talking. He asked me the very simple, but very difficult question: "why are you still with him?"
I figured the answer was obvious. Because I love him.
But all of a sudden, I realized that it isn't that simple.

Interests change, people change. At this point, I've got very few choices in terms of what I want to do with my life. I'd like to open up my horizons. Make some good decisions for myself and for others.

I have to cut the ties that are holding me down, pull off the blinkers... blinders... blindfold...
whatever.

Because right now, I'm missing out.

So.
Decision time.

Improve my health:
start riding my bike more, become pescetarian (or try it at least)

Improve my schooling:
Study more, do homework without procrastinating. I've only got a semester left after all.

Improve myself:
Hang out with good people, make the right choices, be a trustworthy person.
And figure out the whole boy issue.

Overall improvement? I hope I'll see it soon.

~marina

"I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hung over
I love you forever, forever is over
We used to kiss all night; now it's just a bar fight
So don’t call me crazy; say hello to goodbye."
- Boys Like Girls, "Love Drunk"