I have found myself thinking a lot lately, often far into the early morning hours. Worrying. Planning. Analyzing. And all over something that is only mildly important to others but has become very important to me.
I've been happy with how I look for the most part for the majority of my life. But lately I've hit a proverbial wall.
Before my first term of college, I was 5'6" and 140 pounds.
After my first term I had gained 25 pounds, and have settled into a weight between 160 and 165. This puts my BMI just above the 'overweight' line for the first time in my life and it's a crushing blow to my self esteem.
I can't even stand to look at myself any more, so I plan to do something about it.
~Marina
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