miss murder

I used to really love this song. Now I just think it's okay.

So I guess behaving well and keeping up in classes does not draw unnecessary attention away from me. Seriously, I'm doing great in my classes and I've been a good little hippie but my mom still insists on drug testing me. I don't get it. I'm almost 18, so my life is becoming my own. I can handle the responsibility of my actions, but not if I'm not doing anything. Sad though it is, that's just my luck.

The bright side of this annoying scenario is that I'm trying to smooth out the rougher edges of my personality, and doing quite well. Robin's "about me" on facebook is kind of inspiring, I'll attach a screenshot of it...

Never mind, I can't do that... I'll just type it.

"For the first time in my life I have really started to grasp the idea of non-judgement in terms of myself, because that's all you can really relate to anything. Like, when you judge someone you're really just judging yourself and your own actions whether right or wrong. When you look at someone else with distaste or with disagreement and you're just feeding your own ego thinking that what you're doing is right, thinking that you're correct, when it's really not that way at all. I've been looking at my thoughts and my own actions and just noting them and when I take note of that they start to disappear."

Thank you, Robin. Maybe I can take that advice.

So for film studies I've been thinking about screenplay ideas, and the longer I think about it the more likely it seems that I'll adapt my story into the screenplay. A teenage girl struggling to gain her independence with her two best friends and boyfriend by her side. Sounds like it could work. Just have to make sure mom doesn't read it.

Strangely enough I've just been shuffling all the songs on my iPod and I forgot how many of these songs I like listening to. Random, yeah.

I'm out of things to say, so i'll call this good for now. It may be a while until I post something again... Till then, I wish you all peace, love, and happiness. Keep looking to the future, no matter how bad you feel. Keep positive. Positive vibes. They work wonders.

~marina {is, and will always be, a citizen of Nutopia, and misses her dear heart...}