Time

I can't even begin to describe how much I miss you. If I so much as try, I'm speechless and redundant...

"cause 'I love you's not enough, I'm lost for words."

I'm both dreading and welcoming the beginning of the new school year... I think that if I can get myself in the right state of mind, the rest of the time will fly by... But I've adopted your mantra. I don't know. But really, who does?

When you called me today I had this irrational fear that you would say that you didn't need me, didn't want me anymore... The news that it was an injury was bittersweet. People get hurt when they fight, I should have heard that in your voice. But the fact that while I was sleeping, so naive and innocent, lost in dreams, you were in pain... I just don't know why I was so scared today.

The truth is, you're my heart, and I don't want to ever lose you.

I really am lost as to what to say next.

I love you so much, and I just want you to come home... To see you again, to make up the time we haven't spent together. I want to be everything to you.

It's just so stressful... But I know it'll get better. It's just a matter of time.

"ticking away
The moments that make up a dull day
Fritter and waste the hours in an offhand way
Kicking around on a piece of ground
In your hometown
Waiting for someone or something to show you the way."
- "Time" - Pink Floyd

~marina