Thursday, February 26

permit test, nutrition...

I'm bettering myself physically, mentally, and emotionally!
They say that you're supposed to love yourself, and slowly but surely I'm getting there :D
I'm accomplishing things I never expected I could.
I've got potential!

Kevin made an excellent point when we were talking during history class earlier this week.
He was talking about his realization... No matter what, you can wake up and decide to have a good day, and you will.
It's the Secret in action!
freakyyy.
I'm gonna try to do that more often...
and follow his ideas about refined sugar, msg, and water consumption.
That boy is a freaking genius, I swear.

So I have aerobics tomorrow... Gonna work out all these sore muscles.
Losing weight, gaining muscle!
I've never been in such a happy state of mind...
It can only get better.
Hugging random objects...
hehe.
Talk to y'all later!

~Mimi

Wednesday, February 25

infinite roots.

Don't ask about the title, I was getting a math lecture from Alex during band practice yesterday.
I love my band geek friends, I mean, we're the quirkiest group of people this side of the Rio Grande.

Anyways.
He's leaving today, and then he'll be back next year.
I don't feel as sad as I expected to, really.
I feel just sort of... numb, but I have an overwhelming sense of pride and determination.
I don't know how exactly I'm to occupy myself until February 24th, 2010.
Then again, it's partially through senior year.
I bet I'll find something.

Tall spines, tall spines... must not forget.
I better go get ready for school, I've got twenty minutes to do God knows what.

Hasta luego
~Mimi

Sunday, February 22

*title missing*

if I could disown my brother...

Argh. I seriously would.

Okay I have basically nothing to do and now I think I'll go do some laundry.

Maybe post something substantial later today or later tomorrow.

Random update before I go, I'm getting more comfortable with my weight loss.
Thank you, aerobics class!

~Mimi

"I'm shipping up to Boston..."

Saturday, February 21

Fields of Athenry

Yes indeed, my music taste is evolving once more, due to friends' influences.
I'm now quite hooked on the very different sound of the Dropkick Murphys.
How can you *not* like a band that uses bagpipes while playing Celtic punk?!

One of my current favorite songs is "Fields of Athenry," an old Irish tune that the Murphys covered quite well. The lyrics are the original from the tune.

"By a lonely prison wall,
I heard a young girl calling
Michael, they have taken you away,
For you stole Trevelyan's corn,
So the young might see the morn.
Now a prison ship lies waiting in the bay.

Low lie the fields of Athenry
Where once we watched the small free birds fly
Our love was on the wing, we had dreams and songs to sing
It's so lonely 'round the fields of Athenry.

By a lonely prison wall,
I heard a young man calling
Nothing matters, Mary, when you're free
Against the famine and the Crown,
I rebelled, they cut me down.
Now you must raise our child with dignity.

Low lie the fields of Athenry
Where once we watched the small free birds fly
Our love was on the wing, we had dreams and songs to sing
It's so lonely 'round the fields of Athenry.

By a lonely harbor wall,
she watched the last star falling
As that prison ship sailed out against the sky
Sure she'll wait and hope and pray,
for her love in Botany Bay
It's so lonely 'round the fields of Athenry.

It's so lonely 'round the fields of Athenry.

Low lie the fields of Athenry
Where once we watched the small free birds fly
Our love was on the wing, we had dreams and songs to sing
It's so lonely 'round the fields of Athenry."

In other news...
Progress has been made on playing "Your Hand In Mine"
I can play it roughly through the middle of page 2. I had to modify the bass line because the way it was transposed did not consider the easier alternatives for piano players. (i.e. the left hand eighth notes that should be written with the stem up are written with the stem down in an annoyingly complicated series that should just be written as an arpeggio)
But part of being a musician is not simply being able to *play* the music, but adapting it to work for you.

I'm also finally going to study for my permit, as my laziness has obscured it for quite some time. I made a deal with Kiwi that I would study for no more than a week and then take the test, see how well my memory works.
I'm pretty confident in my abilities so no worries there. If my whorish ex-best friend could get her permit it ought to be a piece of cake for me.

There's a possibility that I'm going to the consignment shop in town to get rid of this ring and get myself some much-needed money. Well today I'm getting it appraised, not sure if I'm gonna sell it. I'm hoping for around $150 or so, though that standard may be a little high.

No pun intended.

~Mimi

Thursday, February 19

Key of E major.

Probably one of the more annoying keys when it comes to music. I honestly think that the only instruments that could possibly benefit from this are strings... especially violins.

This just goes to show that I get very frustrated when there's more than two sharps in the key signature of a piece.
Tempo on "Your Hand In Mine" is fairly straightforward, 6/8 time and beats one and two are in a general slow andante.

I have a year to learn it.
Spend two months per page and then the last four months putting it all together...
Shouldn't be that bad.

And again, I seem to be stuck in the typical rut when it comes to writing.
Nothing substantial to say.

Having to phone is both an aggravation and a blessing, because with all the free time I have, I can start playing piano more.
Maybe I'll add some more to my medley... But I have to find some songs that fit the overall theme. Not doing so well on that, seeing as I'm having difficulty actually identifying the theme. Is it a coming-of-age? A reflection of self? an expression of my feelings for someone?
It could be all of them. I'm not entirely sure.

Aggravations upon aggravations! One thing that bothers me.
People who think they're cool because they play guitar but can't read music to save their lives.
"What's that curvy shaped thing at the beginning of the lines?"
"That's a treble clef, genius."

Another thing I hate. People obsessing over other people.
What else do I hate, let me see here...
Middle school/early high school relationships.
Anyone who pronounces "nuclear" like "nuculer"
The way my Clothing Workshop teacher says "measure" with a long a.
When Ms. Morrison calls cookies 'biscuits'; Kevin and I crack up laughing every time.
Sinus headaches
Bad trips.
E minor key signature and all following progressive added sharps.

If I could find a competent teacher to help me play this song I would be pretty damn happy.

On my to-do list!
Watch the so-called "Dark Side of the Rainbow"
Watch "Across the Universe"
Watch the unrated version of "The Ruins"
(I'm choosing not to include this line for fear of getting in trouble)

Ugh.
I think now would be a good time to take some medicine before anything gets worse.

"Look around, choose your own ground... Balanced on the biggest wave, you race towards an early grave"

Nothing else to say really...
Until later, I suppose.

~Mimi

Wednesday, February 18

Being stalked... not fun.

So in the process of getting rid of one stalker by dating someone, that person became a stalker. In a roundabout kind of way.
I swear if my name shows up in one more blog post I'm gonna murder someone.

Seriously!

It wasn't supposed to be that big of a deal, I was taking myself off the market, so to speak, so my stalker ex would leave me alone. Once I was sure he was over me I dumped that sorry freshman bf's ass.
Simple as that.

Moving along.
I feel like crap but I'm not, and I repeat, not going to stay home from school. After missing two or three days with the chicken pox, I'm determined to attend school as much as possible.
On A days I can't afford to miss aerobics and on B days I have band practice, and seeing as the OSU band festival is on March 3rd, we need all the practice we can get. Especially on SPQR, (Senatus Populusque Romanus, or the Senate and People of Rome) and most especially on the third movement, Via Appia. Lots of sixteenth notes and sixteenth note triplets that shouldn't be too hard if I practice them some more. I've almost got it down though. Not bad for first flute third chair, eh? I'm also doing pretty well on Sea Songs, a medley of three British naval marches including Princess Royal, Admiral Benbow, and Portsmouth. I particularly like Admiral Benbow, the second movement, because the story behind it is tragically funny.

I just downloaded the piano sheet music to "Your Hand In Mine" by Explosions in the Sky.
If you haven't heard that song, I strongly recommend that you do. It's heartbreaking and empowering at the same time.
It's tied for the song that reminds me most of Daniel... aside from "Wish You Were Here" obviously.
This sheet music is somewhat challenging but it's in the same key as "Victor's Piano Solo" which I managed to struggle through, and other than the key (four sharps... yikes) is relatively straightforward.
I think I'll add it to the piano medley I'm arranging...
If I can play it.

While I was looking up random information I remembered that Daniel was planning to send me a Claddagh ring... The heart, hands, and crown insignia that is popular in Irish heritage. Depending on where it's worn, it symbolizes the status of the wearer. I think I'll wear it on my right ring finger with the tip of the heart pointed towards me... Indicating that someone has captured my heart.

I think I'm attempting to put myself into a diabetic coma with Everlasting Gobstoppers, these things are too addicting! Grabbed a box at Dollar Tree when I was getting some energy drinks to counteract the sluggishness that accompanied the Nyquil. Didn't help much, I felt sick after drinking half of the first can and I gave it to Ashley. Perhaps it's my caffeine intolerance.

Hmm. Is there anything of substance left to write?
Not exactly.
Ah well, this is more productive writing than I've completed for a while now.

Catch you later,
~Mimi

Tuesday, February 17

boredom sucks.

Talking on the phone with Kiwi!
Woot!

Hopefully I'm going to also talk to Daniel tonight.
I miss him way too much already.

I also have nothing substantial to write.

I might write something later...

~Mimi

Sunday, February 15

Let's hear it for America's Suitehearts.

"I must confess, I'm in love with my own sins..."

Well... the day has finally arrived...
tomorrow, Daniel is leaving to go back to Fort Drum. Next week he'll be going to Afghanistan. I feel so proud of him, and at the same time, I want to cry.
I'm going to miss him, I really will. He won't be back for a year, at least.
I'll wait for him.
We have a closer emotional connection than anyone else I've ever met. When I'm with him, I feel so complete. He's everything I'm not, and I'm everything he's not. We've both got these crazily twisted senses of humor and...

A year is way too fricking long.
But I will be patient.
I have his first set of dogtags... to remember him by.

"I'm leaving on a jet plane, I don't know when I'll be back again..."

~Mimi

Saturday, February 14

content, or lack therof!

Well I'm content because I spent some time with Daniel and his friends but it wasn't nearly enough.
He's looking quite awesome, by the way...

*stares off into space for a moment*

Okay, moving along.
That's basically all I have to say...

Except...
Tomorrow.
Triple date-ish thing!
We're staying at the house and watching Click.
Daniel and I, Rachel and ...someone.... and Becky and Trent...
Oooh joy.
Actually I'm looking forward to it.

I'll see you on the dark side of the moon.
~mimi

oh. my. god.

Daniel's plane has just touched down at PDX!

I'm looking tres amazing...
We make one badass couple.

At least we will once he drives here to Mac.

In the meantime I think I'm gonna go dance to "Love Shack."

in recognition of Valentine's day, here's a good ol' comprehensive list of ways to say "I love you."

English - I love you
Afrikaans - Ek het jou lief
Albanian - Te dua
Arabic - Ana behibak (to male) Ana behibek (to female)
Armenian - Yes kez sirumen
Bambara - M'bi fe
Bangla - Aamee tuma ke bhalo aashi
Belarusian - Ya tabe kahayu
Bisaya - Nahigugma ako kanimo
Bulgarian - Obicham te
Cambodian - Soro lahn nhee ah
Cantonese Chinese - Ngo oiy ney a
Catalan - T'estimo
Cheyenne - Ne mohotatse
Chichewa - Ndimakukonda
Corsican - Ti tengu caru (to male)
Creol - Mi aime jou
Croatian - Volim te
Czech - Miluji te
Danish - Jeg Elsker Dig
Dutch - Ik hou van jou
Esperanto - Mi amas vin
Estonian - Ma armastan sind
Ethiopian - Afgreki'
Faroese - Eg elski teg
Farsi - Doset daram
Filipino - Mahal kita
Finnish - Mina rakastan sinua
French - Je t'aime, Je t'adore
Gaelic - Ta gra agam ort
Georgian - Mikvarhar
German - Ich liebe dich
Greek - S'agapo
Gujarati - Hoo thunay prem karoo choo
Hiligaynon - Palangga ko ikaw
Hawaiian - Aloha wau ia oi
Hebrew - Ani ohev otah (to female) Ani ohev et otha (to male)
Hiligaynon - Guina higugma ko ikaw
Hindi - Hum Tumhe Pyar Karte hae
Hmong - Kuv hlub koj
Hopi - Nu' umi unangwa'ta
Hungarian - Szeretlek
Icelandic - Eg elska tig
Ilonggo - Palangga ko ikaw
Indonesian - Saya cinta padamu
Inuit - Negligevapse
Irish - Taim i' ngra leat
Italian - Ti amo
Japanese - Aishiteru
Kannada - Naanu ninna preetisuttene
Kapampangan - Kaluguran daka
Kiswahili - Nakupenda
Konkani - Tu magel moga cho
Korean - Sarang Heyo
Latin - Te amo
Latvian - Es tevi miilu
Lebanese - Bahibak
Lithuanian - Tave myliu
Malay - Saya cintakan mu / Aku cinta padamu
Malayalam - Njan Ninne Premikunnu
Mandarin Chinese - Wo ai ni
Marathi - Me tula prem karto
Mohawk - Kanbhik
Moroccan - Ana moajaba bik
Nahuatl - Ni mits neki
Navaho - Ayor anosh'ni
Norwegian - Jeg Elsker Deg
Pandacan - Syota na kita!
Pangasinan - Inaru Taka
Papiamento - Mi ta stimabo
Persian - Doo-set daaram
Pig Latin - Iay ovlay ouyay
Polish - Kocham Ciebie
Portuguese - Eu te amo
Romanian - Te ubesk
Russian - Ya tebya liubliu
Scot Gaelic - Tha gra\dh agam ort
Serbian - Volim te
Setswana - Ke a go rata
Sign Language - ,\,,/ (represents position of fingers when signing'I Love You')
Sindhi - Maa tokhe pyar kendo ahyan
Sioux - Techihhila
Slovak - Lu`bim ta
Slovenian - Ljubim te
Spanish - Te quiero / Te amo
Swahili - Ninapenda wewe
Swedish - Jag alskar dig
Swiss-German - Ich lieb Di
Tagalog - Mahal kita
Taiwanese - Wa ga ei li
Tahitian - Ua Here Vau Ia Oe
Tamil - Nan unnai kathalikaraen
Telugu - Nenu ninnu premistunnanu
Thai - Chan rak khun (to male)
Thai - Phom rak khun (to female)
Turkish - Seni Seviyorum
Ukrainian - Ya tebe kahayu
Urdu - mai aap say pyaar karta hoo
Vietnamese - Anh ye^u em (to female)
Vietnamese - Em ye^u anh (to male)
Welsh - 'Rwy'n dy garu
Yiddish - Ikh hob dikh
Yoruba - Mo ni fe

but remember...
"Love just has to grow in time."
-Daniel

Well this may very well be the last post of the day so, Happy Valentine's Day, everyone!
Peace and love!
~Mimi

My Literary Archetype

Poseidon: The Artist and the Abuser


You are the classic creator. You love using your hands and your mind. Your greatest passion is creating a work of art, whether it be in painting, writing, or poetry. (I happen to be an artist). You are in touch with your emotions, but in no means in control of them. You can only express you emotion in controlled bursts, and these can, occasionally, be quite violent. Your greatest fear is of yourself. You fear that you will lose control of your feelings. As such, you become ashamed of strong emotion; this converts all strong emotions into pain. Of the archetypes listed here, the Artist is the most adept at creating relationships. The opposite sex is attracted to the Artist's creative, romantic spirit and intense emotion. You care what others think of you and your creations. Your entire idium is dependant on acceptance. Rejection is like death. You work well with "The Businessman", because, while you like fame, you aren't smart enough in business to attain it.
The Artist can pretty much get any mate he/she wants. To make a choice, though, one would do well to go with "The Seducer", who could teach you to be proud of your emotions.
The foul side of the Artist is the Abuser. The Abuser is spawned when an Artist can't control his anger and frustration. He becomes a very violent man. In his rage he forgets about the feelings of others, and will often be very abusive to loved ones. This is omnipresent in most cases of aquaintance rape. After the initial violence, the abuser is very adept at repenting. He is the quintessential man who beats his wife and gives her flowers later.
A good example of the Artist/Abuser is Vincent Van Gogh, who was very creative, but eventually became so frustrated that he cut off his own ear, and eventually killed himself.

Not Singles Awareness Day for once!

The suspense is going to kill me.
I swear.
Daniel's flight is delayed and it's scheduled to arrive sometime around noon today...
He was supposed to be here last night, dammit!
Air travel officially needs to die... or reorganize.

So how do I kill five and a half (approximate) hours till he gets here?

I have no clue.

I might just meander around Myspace some more, change my profile a bit, I don't know yet. But I have to occupy my time somehow and then I get to plan how to spend time with him...

Seeing as my parents aren't quite pleased with the age difference.
Thanks to my *last* boyfriend they're reluctant to let me go anywhere.
But maybe when they meet him they'll change their minds. He's a hell of a lot better than some high school freshman.
and for the most part he's very responsible...
For the most part.

On a different note, (no pun intended)

My taste in music is refusing to settle. I've been through some music phases, that are as follows:
Disturbed
Rammstein
Disturbed and Rammstein
Rammstein and Pink Floyd
Pink Floyd
Pink Floyd, Crazy Fingers and Kansas
Pink Floyd, Basshunter
Basshunter, 3Oh!3, Lily Allen
Pink Floyd again

The present phase is Pink Floyd, Kansas, Toto, Rush, Basshunter, Doobie Brothers, Grateful Dead...
Well...
There's more but I don't think people would enjoy reading it.

I'm rambling again.
Gotta get focused.

My report card showed up finally.
I expected to fail Ms. TV's class...
But all in all I racked up six A's and two B's, earning myself a semester GPA of 3.75!
Hooah rock on.
Fifteen and a half credits down... seven and a half to go.
I'm feeling quite accomplished. I'm only a year and a half from getting out of this school!

"There's a time and a place for everything. It's called college."

(whoops. Should've thought about that before, huh?)

In light of a recent event, I would like to share a quote...

"Simply put, it alters and expands consciousness by loosening or - at higher doses- completely erasing the normal filters and screens between your conscious mind and the outside world. With these filters down, more information rushes in and you became aware of things normally filtered out out by your mind. You sense more, think more, feel more. Visual, auditory, sensory, emotional. The intricate details on surfaces, the richness of sound, the brightness of colours, and the complexity of your own mental processes."

It was so beautiful it made me want to cry.
And if you don't know what I'm talking about, don't let it worry you.

"Hold the line... love isn't always on time."

"I feel so untouched and I want you so much that I just can't resist you, is that enough to say that I miss you?"

~Mimi

Monday, February 9

Carry On Wayward Son

"Carry on my wayward son
There'll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don't you cry no more."

This is a good song anyways, but REALLY LISTEN to it.
Breathe it.
Feel it.

Dream it.

"I have become comfortably numb..."

~Mimi

Thursday, February 5

Aerobics again

"B-b-b-bruises
Cover your arms
Shaking in your fingers with the bottle in your palm
And the best is
No one knows who you are
Just another girl alone at the bar"

I'm excited for two reasons.

One, my evenings are becoming more enjoyable...

And two, Valentine's day is going to ROCK.

Take that, 300 mile radius limits!
Okay only Daniel would get that.

So, I'm looking forward to tomorrow. Aerobics is awesome. Sydney and Stephen are my buddies in that class. Warm ups, ab work, arm work, lunges, then the floor routine.

Right, left, shuffle right. left, right, shuffle left.
Skip right, left, right, tap. back left, right, left, tap.
Lunge left one two three, right one two three.
turn one two three, clap, turn one two three clap. and so on and so forth.

Amazing stuff. Kicks you while you're down and you wake up SO sore the next day but it's worth it.
About time I got my laziness taken care of.
And dropped a few pounds.
Yeahhh.
Good stuff.
I have nothing else substantial to write about... i should keep a journal in the evenings and record my... inspired thoughts.

Peace out.

~Mimi

Tuesday, February 3

good day.

It could have been better.
The orchard is boring
Good stuff.

Sunday, February 1

Aerobics, Pink Floyd, Bright Colors, and USB Cables.

That's basically all that today consisted of.
We went shopping for a while, just us girls, and I am wearing aqua leggings, black shorts, a purple tank and a yellow tee (a combination that I would have previously thought horrendous, both in the way it fit, and the colors. Things have definitely changed...) To go along with those I'm wearing lime green eyeshadow and fuschia eyeliner. Crazy.
I also FINALLY bought Dark Side Of The Moon and listened to it twice through when I got home. Shortly after that I went back to my good old techno because Pink Floyd makes me very dismally lonely and it makes me think of Daniel.
Aerobics starts tomorrow, and I'm pretty excited, which is unusual. I naturally HATE gym classes but I'm going to enter this with an open mind. It helps quite a bit that Sydney is in my class!
She's also going to do my hair when I get to school tomorrow and then maybe I won't be quite as helpless when it comes to ratting. Very chic.
Last topic before the randomness begins...
USB cables. I took a few pictures with my phone of my makeup and outfit, but I can't seem to find the cable. So my pictures are sadly stuck on my BlackBerry and are not going to be posted on Myspace until I can find the cable.
Wait! Hark!
I think Dad knows where the cable is.
Standby...

Ha! Got it!
Be right back, I promise.

Pics uploaded!
Now to post this and change my pic to my cooler one...
See you later, guys.

~Mimi

dare, double dare. Physical challenge!

Okay myspace buddies!

pc4pc and w4w!
comment my truthbox pleaseplease!

"I'm a bamf. if you're doing this right now, you're a bamf!"

I am like in LOVE with Jonas Altberg.
but at the same time not.

he's sexy.

Annnywaysss...
Daniel got his bonus!
Which means he might be able to fly back here next weekend before he gets deployed.
I love that boy so much.

Stay safe, Daniel.
Your cause is heroic, yes.
But stay safe.

~Mimi