Love Drunk.

Okay. We've got a few problems here.

First off, I'm never letting anyone borrow my flash drive, EVER again. My screenplay is gone. Which should annoy me more than it does, but retyping ten pages won't be too horrible.

Second of all, I have no idea what I'm gonna do about the boy.

Talking to people who know me, they sense that I'm discontent. They want me to be with someone who makes me happy.

Right now, I just feel cast-off, like a snakeskin. He says ignoring me is for my own good, but that's just bullshit. He acted the same way right before christmas. But this is just ridiculous.

Anyways. I was studying for the Ocean Bowl today with Tasha and Robin. When Tasha had to leave, Robin and I mobbed to Cornerstone and started talking. He asked me the very simple, but very difficult question: "why are you still with him?"
I figured the answer was obvious. Because I love him.
But all of a sudden, I realized that it isn't that simple.

Interests change, people change. At this point, I've got very few choices in terms of what I want to do with my life. I'd like to open up my horizons. Make some good decisions for myself and for others.

I have to cut the ties that are holding me down, pull off the blinkers... blinders... blindfold...
whatever.

Because right now, I'm missing out.

So.
Decision time.

Improve my health:
start riding my bike more, become pescetarian (or try it at least)

Improve my schooling:
Study more, do homework without procrastinating. I've only got a semester left after all.

Improve myself:
Hang out with good people, make the right choices, be a trustworthy person.
And figure out the whole boy issue.

Overall improvement? I hope I'll see it soon.

~marina

"I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hung over
I love you forever, forever is over
We used to kiss all night; now it's just a bar fight
So don’t call me crazy; say hello to goodbye."
- Boys Like Girls, "Love Drunk"

Reach For the Sky

So... just dragging myself through the next few weeks till Daniel comes back...

We've got to live like we only have today. I say that WAY too much, I know, but it's tragically true...

~marina


"When I was young I was invincible
I found myself not thinking twice
I never thought about no future
It's just a roll of the dice

But the day may come when you got something to lose
And just when you think you're done paying dues
You say to yourself "Dear, God What have I Done?"
And hope its not too late cause tomorrow may never come

Reach for the sky cause tomorrow may never come
Reach for the sky cause tomorrow may never come

Yesterday is history
And tomorrow is a mystery
But baby right now,
It's just about you and me

You can run you can hide
Just like Bonnie and Clyde
Reach for the sky
ain't never gonna die
And I thank the Lord for the love that I have found
And hold you tight cause tomorrow may never come

Reach for the sky cause tomorrow may never come
Reach for the sky cause tomorrow may never come

So if you please take this moment
Try if you can to make it last
Don't think about no future
And just forget about the past
And make it last

Reach for the sky cause tomorrow may never come
(reach for the sky I ain't never going down)
Reach for the sky cause tomorrow may never come
(reach for the sky I ain't never coming down)
Reach for the sky cause tomorrow may never come
(reach for the sky I ain't never going down)
Reach for the sky cause tomorrow may never come"

-"Reach For the Sky" - Social Distortion