baby are you down?

So it's really early and I've been up all night... Bad move, but hey, it's Friday now, and we have a half day, so why the hell not?

Plans for the day:
make scones (check)
get picked up by Sydney
go to school
survive film studies, band, and German
possibly go to ashley's
possibly spend the night at ashley's
possibly rent Resident Evil and Tim Burton movies and invite Sydney over to watch them
possibly go trick-or-treating
possibly stay up all tonight and tomorrow night too
possibly...
I dunno.
I'm just way hyper right now, low caffeine tolerance and all.

Gotta love it.

Anyhootles, three days left.

Hm. What do I want to talk about?

It's so weird how different the music is that I listen to...

Got to chat with Jeremy, that was cool.

Cookie crashed on the couch, like she's not supposed to do, but what do I care?

"we drank the great lakes
like cold lemonade
and both got stomachaches
sprawled out in the shade"

gotta love Owl City.

Going to one of his concerts would be bombdiggity.

Ah, this weekend should be somewhat interesting.

Now it's time to make another cup of espresso, wash the dishes, and pretend like I was in bed the whole night.

Wish me luck.

"so tell me baby, pretty baby
that this house is not a graveyard
tell me how to be strong
and carry you home."

~marina

don't dance

Once again, I'm being an idiot and diving into this post without a flipping clue what I'm really going to write.

First of all, I guess I'm glad that I'm such a mellow person, otherwise I'd probably be ripping my hair out by the roots right now. Two people in particular are pissing me off.

Numero uno: that motherfucking pain-in-the-ass freshman bitch that rides our bus. I swear she's on crack or something, and she's such a little slut. Ugh. Holly's on our side, though. She slammed on the brakes when the chick was standing in the aisle, and just about threw her into the windshield. It's gonna get ugly, and it's gonna be soon.

Numero dos: Kaylee. I hate how much Potter's House has done to her. She's just not the same...

Annoyances aside, Daniel will be out of Afghanistan in four days. I cannot even begin to describe just how much relief we're both feeling. But the small amount of time left is going to be the most aggravating time I've ever experienced. This chapter's almost over, it's almost time to turn the page.

It's strange that even though I thought I had absolutely zero ability to draw, I found out that indeed I can, if I've got a general idea of what I'm drawing. So for a test, I'm going to draw the Crystal Caves for my oceanography project. Wish me luck.

"Baby are you down-down-down-down-down?"

~marina

early birdie

Two things just occured to me.
First, I don't blog enough, and I'm determined to change that.
Second, I need to throw my clothes in the washer before someone else calls dibs on it.

Be right back, I promise.

Rockin, now I just have to make sure someone doesn't try to throw it all in the dryer, or they'll ruin my favorite jacket.

So I'm really liking Owl City today, not sure why. I must be in a synthpop groove or something.

Really all I'm trying to do anymore is kill time until Daniel gets back. The time from now till then will probably seem like the most boring days of my life... Perhaps not this coming weekend, however. It's ashley's birthday and then Halloween. I might go chill at her house, or rent Tim Burton movies and lay on the couch. Who knows, it's all just a time kill.

I figure that having a small amount of clothes pays off in the end. Less laundry and less complicated choices.

Maybe that's just me.

"Put your hand up on my hip
when I dip, you dip, we dip."

that's ashley's chew song. We're weird.

Good Friday night though. Kind of sucked for me, since Ashley and Jack were making out for most of the night (cute and all, but I was somewhat deprived in that respect.) Daniel did call three or four times just to talk, so I wasn't horribly bored. However, for the time I was laying on the kitchen floor, I was utterly bored. Yesterday morning was kind of crappy, but I asked Kevin to drive me home so I wouldn't have to ask my parents. It all worked out in the end.

How depressing is it that I'm spending my sunday night the same way I spend nearly every night?

Very, very sad.

Haven't heard from Daniel all day either... *shrug*

Dinner's almost done, rockin. See you guys later.

"I signed off and closed my eyes
then I was falling through the sky."

~marina

Ugh.

I can't breathe through my nose. There's my complaint du jour.

It doesn't matter how much I think about everything that's going on, I still can't formulate my thoughts enough to write something substantial. All I can say is that we're still being patient... Only a few more days...

Eight months (nearly nine, actually) is too damn long to be apart.

Just a few more days. That's all that's left.

"while the storyteller speaks
a door within the fire creaks
suddenly flies open
and a girl is standing there
eyes alight with glowing hair
all that fancy paints as fair
she takes her fan and throws it
in the lion's den."

"Terrapin Station" - Grateful Dead

~marina

disco mushrooms

So it appears to me that good moods are much more infectious than bad. Because goddamn, I feel awesome right now.

There, Sam. I posted something :)

~marina

upstarts and broken hearts

I'm so beyond angry right now, I could pitch everything I own at a wall and feel no remorse whatsoever. But I won't, because I'm attempting to rein in my frustration.

Effing army. How could you people do this?

I just have to say this...

Alright, it's apparent from the majority of my blog posts that I'm completely head over heels for my boyfriend, Daniel.

And if you read my blog and DIDN'T notice that... Wow. Just wow.

But anyways. Thanks to him I had one of the best days I've had for a long time. For now, he's probably asleep, so I guess I'll post this in the meantime.

I'm not sure what exactly I'm saying. Damn. I guess what I want to say is that I haven't been so happy just talking to someone... Ever. Even before he left, before we were officially dating, I looked forward to talking with him every day or so about whatever we felt like talking about. And somehow, we fell for each other.

I feel like the luckiest girl in the world. That's all I can say for now...

~marina {it won't be long, yeah, till I belong to you.}

time to pretend

So it's been a lurking thought in my mind that I'm a lot happier with my life than a lot of people are with theirs. So why do I let them live the way they are, pessimistic about things when there's so much to be happy about?

The way I see it, life is lived the way you see it. Your body is a vessel for your energy to reside in. It provides movement, a way to process food and water, and senses. That's really all it is, when you boil it down. So people who dislike themselves because they consider themselves physically unattractive... I mean, I see their point of view, but just be healthy, and you've got no reason to say anything bad about your body.

People worry about the future. They worry that they won't go anywhere in life, that they won't have enough money to get where they want to go. The truth is, life ends. Period. Whatever happens afterwards, that's for us to find out. But don't worry about the future. It will happen, as time is bound to do. Don't dwell on the past, because you can't change it. Whatever happened, happened. And don't worry about the future, because the more planning you do, the easier it is to be disappointed if the result isn't what you wanted.

Live NOW. Don't worry. Yesterday's gone, tomorrow will take care of itself, and the only thing you can do is appreciate what you have, right here, right now. If you have enemies, forgive and forget them. They're not worth your time. And your friends, always cherish the moments you have with them. Some friendships won't last forever, so appreciate right now. Make good memories and forget the bad ones. The more you think positively, the more positivity you'll have in your life.

I guess that's my mini-rant/inspirational speech... Hope that makes up for the few days I didn't post anything. Peace and love, guys.

~marina {I'll be out of my mind, and you'll be out of ideas pretty soon, so let's spend the afternoon in a cold hot air balloon.}

fireflies

New single by Owl City. Awesome song. Give it a listen.

"you would not believe your eyes
If ten million fireflies
Lit up the world as I fell asleep
Cause they fill the open air
And leave teardrops everywhere
You'd think me rude but I would just stand and stare

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
Cause everything is never as it seems

Cause I get a thousand hugs
From ten thousand lightning bugs
As they tried to teach me how to dance
A foxtrot above my head
A sock hop beneath my bed
A disco ball is just hanging by a thread

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
Cause everything is never as it seems

Leave my door open just a crack
Cause I feel like such an insomniac
Why do I tire of counting sheep
When I'm far too tired to fall asleep?
T-ten million fireflies
I'm weird cause I hate goodbyes
I got misty eyes as they said farewell
But I'll know where several are
If my dreams get real bizarre
Cause I saved a few and I keep them in a jar

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
Cause everything is never as it seems

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to sat that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
Cause everything is never as it seems

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
Because my dreams are bursting at the seams."

So that's the song. I really love the music and the lyrics.

As usual, not much to say. It's just a normal Saturday morning. But my mind is filled with fireflies.

~marina {I'd like to make myself believe that planet Earth turns slowly}

black friday rule

"I've been down in this world, down and almost broken
And thousands they grieve as the Black Friday rule."

Holy flipping hell, this song is catchy. I mean seriously. It makes me proud of myself for listening to the music that Daniel suggested, because this is a really godamazing song.

Moving along. I'm trying to make plans for college and it's not really going too well. My transcript has a few "bumps", for example. My cumulative GPA is 3.1 and that's not good enough to get into Linfield. And not only do I need to start appying for financial aid, I also have to come up with explanations for my F in global studies. I don't know what I'm going to do.

I guess until everything sorts itself out, I'll relax and listen to music and wait for news.

Peace.

~marina {I want to believe in myself once again}